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Come To The Edge ~ A Poem

By on September 6, 2017
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By Navasi Hartman

There are so few chances in our lives to really see who we are beneath all the conditioning imposed on us by the world.  Our lives rush by as we fit into the various boxes laid out for us.  This 12-Week Emotional Edge TeleCourse is that once-in-a-lifetime chance to get beneath all the layers and find the true gem that is you.  I wrote this poem out of gratitude because I had that chance.  It’s not easy to let go of all the things we believe keep us safe, and I struggled with the course because of that.  I wanted to express that struggle. Perhaps others who struggle will find meaning in it, and hopefully encourage them to take the course, and stay the course, when they do.

Come To The Edge

I colored my world
In a thousand shades of
Grey
I could see all the nuances
Alone
No one rocked my serenity
I didn’t need
God
To grant me any
I granted it myself
There in safety I sat
My Buddha hidden within
Feeling pride
Accomplished I was
In all the arts of communication
With myself
Lonely – no
I spoke to angels
God, colored rainbows
I could believe in
Entered trance easily
No clouds covered my
Magic world
Then
Time moved
I was ordered to belong
A new step
Some other path
Waiting wings untried
Unused and growing fragile
When I opened
To this light that drew me in
She bit me
I was torn asunder by
What I didn’t know
Could exist
All this faulty planning
The bitterness remained
Such things I thought
I didn’t carry
Had relinquished them all
So long ago
By the roadside
Where rocks collect
And journeys begin and end
So I started there
Tearing off layers
Not clothing
Until no skin remained
I was elements
In the harsh wind
Blowing without purpose
Churned beyond reason
This Naguel
I’d seen before
But I’d reached for
My higher power
Was pulled back from that precipice
That edge
This time, no one came
There was no spirit to
Awaken me
There was only me
And I was lost
Shattered and broken
I had fallen
Off the edge to the bottom
Further down than I
Thought possible
Yet here it was
I broke some more
Time did not stand still
So I could recover
myself
Glue the bits into wholes
Again
This time, in pain
I had to recreate what I never
Had, to begin with
Longing I found in the abyss
Then faces began to emerge
They resembled someone
I’d gotten glimmers of
Long ago
Before time slapped me silly
And kicked me aside
Don’t say you are mine,
My friend
Until you’ve too walked that path
To the edge
Where I went over
To break, and return
Someone I didn’t know
Yet could now
Love

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FullSizeRenderNavasi dedicated her life to a spiritual path at age 15, forgoing conventional education to study Bhakti-yoga under the direction of AC Bhaktivedanta Swami.  She raised her two children while opening temples and vegetarian restaurants.  She is married, vice-president of a solar roofing company, and loves writing and art.

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